“It was then that I carried you.”

If I am on a “walk with the Lord,” then I have been at a standstill while He keeps moving forward. I feel like a huge pause button has been pressed in my life.  Everything else kept moving forward, but I have been simply and truly stuck.

For so long I was just waiting for the next thing to happen – May and early June were the craziest months of my entire life.  We packed up our home.  We (and by we I really mean my husband) painted and prepped as much as we could in our new home.  We moved.   In the middle of all of this I had three concerts, two Memorial Day Parades, 4 Graduation Events, an 8th grade recognition night, and two awards assemblies.   And I had to pack up my classroom because they are refinishing the floor in my room this summer.

As I checked one thing after another off my list, instead of feeling more at peace, I still felt heavy, weary and joyless.

And then my Grandfather died.

There is a beautiful poem called “Footprints,” by an anonymous author, that has always been tremendously comforting to me.  Do you know it? Are you nodding along with me?  If not, please–Read:

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I know that I have not been alone in this dark and gloomy stretch.  But I feel so forlorn, and at times so lost and helpless.  Like the narrator of the poem, I could not, and can not feel His arms around me.  I do not feel the security of His embrace.

Are you in a similar place?  Are you feeling lost, confused, overwhelmed, or alone?  Let’s remind each other how precious we are to Him. How beloved we are to Him.

Lord, help us to be aware of your presence, and feel your tangible care for us.  Help us to break out of this slump, and find the strength again to walk beside you.  We believe, we trust, and we will rest in You.  (And only You. Not in ice cream.  Just sayin’.) Ahem.  Thank you for humor. Thank you for the beauty of a blue sky, and the majesty of the flowers that you create, whether they bloom for a whole season, or for three days.  Thank you for the variety of your creation.  Thank you for our different personalities and strengths, woven beautifully together, to tell Your story.

Thank you, precious Father.  Amen.

 

About Meredith

Meredith was born, raised, and now raises her family (with her husband Randy) in the beautiful state of Maine. Together, they are planting a church, relying on God every step of the way. She also has the privilege of being the band director for the town where they live. Life is full, busy, and full of laughter and music. Meredith's home on the web is My Journey to Authenticity.

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  1. Deanna says:

    Oh Meredith! I feel you being stretched. Know that I continue to pray for you and trust that you will indeed find joy. Rest in his strength and comfort friend!
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  2. Oh friend! Life is just crazy sometimes, isn’t it? I hope that soon you will be able to find the peace your soul needs to re-energize. Always here if you need a cheerleader. Love you girlie.
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  3. Oh, girl…how I feel you…deeper than my words can say!

    I have felt like a jumbled mess in my head, heart, and spirit, too…

    Thanks for the openness and the prayer…
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  4. Maxine says:

    Oh Meredith – I am so sad for you and your loss. I am presently writing about grief…. mine is different (for my dog) but there all the same. It is heavy, but I let the tears fall each day. Somehow I am comforted. Moving is stressful and sometimes life throws at us one issue after another. All I know what seems to be working for me is: ONE DAY AT A TIME! Ask GOD to help with this and live and embrace the present, no matter how painful. I am slowly feeling the weight of it all lift and I know this comes from HIM! Time WILL pass on, and you will too. Smiles and laughter are around the corner! Much love.
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  5. Michelle says:

    OH, I needed that prayer! Thank you dear friend. Here’s to getting unstuck together. :)
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  6. Born27 says:

    Thanks Meredith for this inspiring post.. Our Lord is our Shepherd, and whoever walks with him can be saved.
    My mom was in the ICU last week and our only hope is God for her to recover, Glory to God and He never failed us..
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  7. Right now it sounds like Movable Type is the preferred blogging platform out there right now.
    (from what I’ve read) Is that what you are using on your blog?
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